"So how is married life treating you?"
"I don't know, nothing is different. I'm happy, he's happy, we're both incredibly blessed."
In two more days it'll be one month since my husband and I legally married and I have to say, not much is different. I've been asked how married life is too many times to count on one hand and each time I don't know exactly what it is the person expects to hear from me.
My husband and I have lived together for the last 3 years and I believe that had a lot to do with my feeling no different since our our status went from domestic partnership to married. The one question that I'm sure many might want to ask but fear it may be offensive is if I'm pregnant. It's an understandable assumption for anyone to have considering we originally planned a traditional ceremony and reception and had last minute change of plans.
Nope, still not pregnant and still no desire to become a mother yet. Maybe after our church wedding the desire will kick in. For now, I just plan to enjoy my husband as much as I can and be selfish because I know for a fact that once we have children he is going to be the most amazing dad and give all of his attention and affection to the kids. Which, don't get me wrong is a great thing and I'd be blessed to have, but stinks for me as I'm used to receiving it all. Selfish, I know, but I don't think it's wrong to want to be someone's everything after getting married.
I will say this, the biggest change I have noticed is from my in-laws. It's as if once we were married they returned to the way they were with me when I first started dating my husband. I don't really know how to explain it, but I feel welcomed again. I'm sure it has everything to do with the fact that I am now officially their daughter/sister-in-law, but it has felt amazing.
The gut wrenching feeling of not knowing what might be said, how am I going to upset someone now has completely vanished and I'm beyond grateful. I look at my new family and instantly filled with gratitude.
I pray that for as long as I'm alive I'm happily married to my husband and continue to build a strong relationship with my new family.
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